Incomplete dream

Assalamualaikum....
Today after the conversation, I was crying at much. Seriously I felt down and down. Allah tests me again. I tried to be strong but all my strength gone. I had much pain before. I was suffering in sadness a few years ago. I built my own strength but then fell again. Oh Allah I dont want be here anymore. I want go far away from here and complete my dream.
Dream???
Yes I have dream where incomplete yet. I wish I can make it perfect but how?
Here, my incomplete dream:

1) Friend/enemy/someone truely want marry me.
 Okey seriously I hate guy yang nak berkawan sampai bertahun before marry. Nak buat apa berkawan sampai bertahun? If you serious this relationship, let marry. We no longer child. For life, we can work. Dont say tak ada duit lah...because duit datang bertimbun pun takkan cukup.

2) I want silver ring with batu warna purple.
 I love purple so much and I wish ada someone nak bagi to me this ring. Well I found cincin ni kat Dungun but I dont buy it. Nak tunggu sapelah yang bertuah nak bagi kat I cincin silver ngan batu warna purple. Tak mahal pun harganya. Tak sampai RM30 pun. Silver tu mana ada mahal. Aku makan beefsteak kat Secret Recipe lagi mahal.

3) Get marry early
Seriously jika diizinkan Allah aku nak kahwin awal. That why I hate guy yang nak kawan lama2. Let get marry and build life together. Nak risau apa? Takut tak cukup makan? Tak cukup duit? Rezeki tu ada, insyaallah. For my wedding, I dont want lebih. Cukup dengan ijab and kabul depan tok iman, tukar wedding ring and pergi makan2 kat restaurant.  Ala2 barat sikit but THIS IS MY DREAM WEDDING. Toksah nak berbalas hantaran. Aku memang hempuk jugak kalau nanti my future nak bersanding berkompang.

4) Travelling with my hubby
The most waiting for. I want to go travelling with him. Dah bosan jejalan sorang2. At least I have him to share experience and memory.

Incomplete dream. Should I berhijrah or travelling all around the world to complete it?